Tuesday evening

I just came back home. Today was tough. The reason why I went to work with my "normal stress" because I knew something always have to come up and they're tough ones.

First- I found out that the place's owner (Well it's Canteen-incase I forgot to tell ya)is planning on cheating. He came up with the letter stating my electric bill without any electrical detail whatsoever. It's queer. There hasn't been any meter. He just came up with this sum of money stating the fee for the last f***ing 3 months.

Second- some of my employees want to resign at the end of the month for some sentimental reasons that seem ridiculous. (it's hard to find employees- sh**)

Third- My mom interfered out of good intentions and I was to lazy to explain all delicate problems to her. My company has this really fragile problems that outsiders can't really understand- So you will not understand,either. That's why I'm not gonna explain any!!!

She interfered for worries that I will lose all my money. Well-- this is asian culture you're talking about. It's family oriented so don't be surprised why my mom can be involved. I fought with her. It hurts to fight with her for I love her. But I understand my situations and I keep having this thought that I don't need to f***ing explain myself. She forced me to explain anyway to finally temporarily understand the surface of my problems. She also disagrees with me that my top management director don't really come into the office. He works, I know. Noone else knows, though. I'm thinking out of the standard. Still don't get it?? Just from my intuition that makes me trust him. Either that or he's a fraud. Dammit I don't need to fuckin explain myself!!!!! I'm so shittin bored!!!! I wanna go to the sea!!!

Anyways after a fight over the phone, I just had to come down for a few cigarettes. My crush saw me coming down and I knew that if he wanted to make a move, now's the good time for I was pissed and vulnerable. A good consolation would give a really good mark. No..he didn't come down and that made me happy! (: I'm happy with the situation very much. He acted so professional today. I think his ex-boss whom he respects must have had a word with him about our story. How the heck dose he know? We're in food business and everyone's connected!

Anyways later on when I was about to go up, I saw him and another financial manager coming down for a smoke so I changed my mind- stayed there joining them. We all talked about other stuff. And at one point, he talked to me about me being stressed out. He tried to calm me down indirectly as if he didn't mean it. We're getting away further and further from a "crush situation" and I'm happy. I had to control my eyes not to be into "flirting habit" too much. May be he's sincere after all. It's just not proper that's all. At the first place, we were just too young to stop ourselves from flirting. that's all, babe. I'm stressed and happy.